SO! Anyways, I'ma choreo to Nelly and Fergie.
And I'm working on getting a vocal audition all together. My top song choice is Grow for Me - Little Shop of Horrors. My high school did that my sophmore year so that was pretty cool. Back ups I'm thinking like haha That Dentist Song -Little Shop and I got a bunch of other score books like Lion King, The Producers, and Assassins to look through but dunno if there's gonna be anything.
Aite. Blog later.
Oh ya. And prom's comin' up. Just thought you guys should know.
8.19.2009
Aight, New Purpose of the Blog
So, I was gonna work with this blog to read a certain amount and then blog about what I read but so far this summer I haven't really felt up to reading much. Since I got MUCHO SUMMER LEFT :DD I'ma set a new purpose up for this blog.
Either it's gonna be _____ of the day or something like that.
1) Art
2) Choreo
3) Running?
Hmmm... apparently I lack focus. So I think cuz I'ma be goin' to Irvine, I oughta focus on choreo, although the other two are pretty legit too. I run almost everyday now, not much but looking up at maps.google it's like 1.8m I'm running so that's pretty sick. Actually, it could be cool if I charted like my athletic growth through this blog buttttttt..... I need focus soooo.... choreo. Yep.
I'ma start tmr haha.
Either it's gonna be _____ of the day or something like that.
1) Art
2) Choreo
3) Running?
Hmmm... apparently I lack focus. So I think cuz I'ma be goin' to Irvine, I oughta focus on choreo, although the other two are pretty legit too. I run almost everyday now, not much but looking up at maps.google it's like 1.8m I'm running so that's pretty sick. Actually, it could be cool if I charted like my athletic growth through this blog buttttttt..... I need focus soooo.... choreo. Yep.
I'ma start tmr haha.
8.11.2009
What would make me feel accomplished?
I dunno. This whole summer's been pretty good, but I don't feel like I've accomplished anything big. I pack every day CHALKFULL but the thing is, even though I'm tired at the end of the day I don't feel like I did anything worth remembering or posting on my blog. I mean there's been a few good parties and that one mission trip way long ago in June?? And camping on the lake. But what about dancin', paintin', shirts, work. Shucks.
Anyways, me and Stephen and maybe Toast are planning somethin' big for next week it's gonna be so awesome we're gonna hafta PRACTICE FOR IT. WOW.
And Plastic Man tomorrow (today technically)!
Anyways, me and Stephen and maybe Toast are planning somethin' big for next week it's gonna be so awesome we're gonna hafta PRACTICE FOR IT. WOW.
And Plastic Man tomorrow (today technically)!
8.09.2009
NEW PEOPLE
It's weird. I've met a plethora of new people in the last what? seven days? Ya, and it's crazy trying to put names with faces when people look and act so much like other people and then you start calling the wrong people the wrong names or like with Eddie, I was like dude you're like an Xavier and he's like no I like that name can I be him? and then I'm like... sure.
When people remind me of someone it's the weirdest thing. Like for example, my roommate at SPOP was Victor, but I almost called that fool Mason a few times cuz he looks and talks kinda like Mason AND we have almost the same character dynamic, except I dint get close with Mason cuz freshman year we weren't real close but still. And it's weird cuz I can kinda judge how I think my dynamic is gonna be with new people based on the dynamics I have with old relationships with people that are kinda similiar in gait or speak or features.
FOR EXAMPLE I found out that there is a strangely intelligent but pedantic type of person today. Brandon and Andrew, cool guys, but they reminded me a lot of Matt Bazzanella, not cuz of looks (although they were tall like him), but pedantism and a certain level of charisma. Brandon actually, I've never met someone with as much charisma as he. And that fool is smart -- cuz I've never admitted that I feel stupid or anything cuz I haven't... until tonight, when Brandon's talking about how he took advantage of his intelligence and tried to build a plane when he was 8 or opened an independent bank account when he was 15 using his charisma to charm the lady even though you don't get those until you're 18. Charisma like that I only thought existed in like Catch Me If You Can with Leonardo DiCaprio. Wow.
Tonight was a riot. Haha.
When people remind me of someone it's the weirdest thing. Like for example, my roommate at SPOP was Victor, but I almost called that fool Mason a few times cuz he looks and talks kinda like Mason AND we have almost the same character dynamic, except I dint get close with Mason cuz freshman year we weren't real close but still. And it's weird cuz I can kinda judge how I think my dynamic is gonna be with new people based on the dynamics I have with old relationships with people that are kinda similiar in gait or speak or features.
FOR EXAMPLE I found out that there is a strangely intelligent but pedantic type of person today. Brandon and Andrew, cool guys, but they reminded me a lot of Matt Bazzanella, not cuz of looks (although they were tall like him), but pedantism and a certain level of charisma. Brandon actually, I've never met someone with as much charisma as he. And that fool is smart -- cuz I've never admitted that I feel stupid or anything cuz I haven't... until tonight, when Brandon's talking about how he took advantage of his intelligence and tried to build a plane when he was 8 or opened an independent bank account when he was 15 using his charisma to charm the lady even though you don't get those until you're 18. Charisma like that I only thought existed in like Catch Me If You Can with Leonardo DiCaprio. Wow.
Tonight was a riot. Haha.
8.05.2009
SHAGGY - Brisa Hall
Brisa bombahstic cuhz wey fandtasdic.
Haha hope all you suckers havin' fun without me cuz I'm havin' fun w/o you.
Just kiddin.
SoCal's pretty sick. Orientation was rockin' made some friends, still kinda trippin bout fall but I figure it'll be tight once I get there.
It's hot right now in SoCal and it kinda reminds me of when we went to Mexico, especially in San Ysidro at that one motel thing, where the pool was definately not heated and the only way we kept warm was by stuffin' all 30-50 of us I don't remember into their tiny like 12x12 pool and throwin' each other in. That was a riot. It's kinda weird but I gotta say I think with the whole Lifehouse retreats things, I kinda already lived a little bit of dorm life so I kinda get what it's all about. I mean some of the other guys in my hall at UCI were like dude these showers are basically see through like no privacy, but I'm like haha BenMelli wouldn't trip twice about that and would prolli just leave the glass door open anyways while he's showerin'... haha. Dang, I'ma really miss the whole Lifehouse crew.
Cuz it's really different when you're on a vacation from when you're on a mission trip. I'm in SoCal right now and I feel kinda haha aimless...
But it's all good cuz sometimes you just gotta get away. But ya, I'm psyched for plastic man though I'm kinda bummed that I can't make one cuz thad be such a riot. And I gotta get another book from BenMelli to read cuz these last few blogposts ain't had any meaning or direction or focus but I guess that's just how summer is -- haha I'm kinda just posting what's been on my mind, but I'm not that good at improv.
I'ma try out for the Musical Theater class in the fall for UCI so I better get on it learnin a song and stuff but I really hope I get into the Clair Trevor School of the Arts cuz I really don't wanna only take the BioSci classes I gotta take for my major -- which is gonna be death if it's the only thing I take (CUZ YOU ONLY TAKE THREE CLASSES? HAHA THAT'S WEIRD). Or I wanna figure how to get a minor for dance (which you gotta audition to get into) cuz all the dance classes at Clair Trev you can only take if you're a DANCE MAJOR. Thad be cool, but the class thing is tripping.
YO. So call or text.
Haha hope all you suckers havin' fun without me cuz I'm havin' fun w/o you.
Just kiddin.
SoCal's pretty sick. Orientation was rockin' made some friends, still kinda trippin bout fall but I figure it'll be tight once I get there.
It's hot right now in SoCal and it kinda reminds me of when we went to Mexico, especially in San Ysidro at that one motel thing, where the pool was definately not heated and the only way we kept warm was by stuffin' all 30-50 of us I don't remember into their tiny like 12x12 pool and throwin' each other in. That was a riot. It's kinda weird but I gotta say I think with the whole Lifehouse retreats things, I kinda already lived a little bit of dorm life so I kinda get what it's all about. I mean some of the other guys in my hall at UCI were like dude these showers are basically see through like no privacy, but I'm like haha BenMelli wouldn't trip twice about that and would prolli just leave the glass door open anyways while he's showerin'... haha. Dang, I'ma really miss the whole Lifehouse crew.
Cuz it's really different when you're on a vacation from when you're on a mission trip. I'm in SoCal right now and I feel kinda haha aimless...
But it's all good cuz sometimes you just gotta get away. But ya, I'm psyched for plastic man though I'm kinda bummed that I can't make one cuz thad be such a riot. And I gotta get another book from BenMelli to read cuz these last few blogposts ain't had any meaning or direction or focus but I guess that's just how summer is -- haha I'm kinda just posting what's been on my mind, but I'm not that good at improv.
I'ma try out for the Musical Theater class in the fall for UCI so I better get on it learnin a song and stuff but I really hope I get into the Clair Trevor School of the Arts cuz I really don't wanna only take the BioSci classes I gotta take for my major -- which is gonna be death if it's the only thing I take (CUZ YOU ONLY TAKE THREE CLASSES? HAHA THAT'S WEIRD). Or I wanna figure how to get a minor for dance (which you gotta audition to get into) cuz all the dance classes at Clair Trev you can only take if you're a DANCE MAJOR. Thad be cool, but the class thing is tripping.
YO. So call or text.
8.02.2009
SoCAL!
So I'm goin' to SoCAL now for orientation and just hanging in the hots. Hope I'm comin' back with laughs and stories.
Haha.
Haha.
7.31.2009
Crystal Ball - Keane
OH Crystal Ball, Crystal Ball, save us all, tell me what I'm looking for,
Mirror, Mirror, on the wall, show us all...
I think it's kinda funny how everytime I journal -- it's already the next day, so I'll put the "real technical" date, but it's not about that day at all. Like this blog for instance, it says July 31, but the entry is really about July 30, about swimming in the morning, fighting for the water polo ball and kidnapping girls to sacrifice, watching the Italian Job and eatin MacnCheese at Nielson's, goin to Jamba and driving around friends, drivin to Ocean Beach nd bonfires, and calling your girlfriend a little too late.
I think it'd be cool to have a Crystal Ball so you'd know what to pack so you'd always be prepared.
So far, my plan is to learn Chinese, Korean, and Spanish in that order. Cuz it's embarassing to only be able to speak but not read Chinese -- if you're Chinese. And in terms of foreign language, I always thought it'd be easier to learn the language if you were watching films from a country where that's the native language... but for Spanish, there's only Telenovellas -- which blow. And so we were watching films at Jon Wong's place all in Korean, and I realized that S.Korea's got a BOOMiNG film industry to rival U.S. (or not... ya... but it's really booming). So if I've gotta learn a foreign language, it should be Korean, cuz then I can watch all these Korean dramas and movies and Good Bad Weirds. And then when I'm 30 I can go be a missionary in N.Korea or something and martyr and it'll all be good. After I've been on Broadway. Ya, that sounds like a good plan.
Haha.
Mirror, Mirror, on the wall, show us all...
I think it's kinda funny how everytime I journal -- it's already the next day, so I'll put the "real technical" date, but it's not about that day at all. Like this blog for instance, it says July 31, but the entry is really about July 30, about swimming in the morning, fighting for the water polo ball and kidnapping girls to sacrifice, watching the Italian Job and eatin MacnCheese at Nielson's, goin to Jamba and driving around friends, drivin to Ocean Beach nd bonfires, and calling your girlfriend a little too late.
I think it'd be cool to have a Crystal Ball so you'd know what to pack so you'd always be prepared.
So far, my plan is to learn Chinese, Korean, and Spanish in that order. Cuz it's embarassing to only be able to speak but not read Chinese -- if you're Chinese. And in terms of foreign language, I always thought it'd be easier to learn the language if you were watching films from a country where that's the native language... but for Spanish, there's only Telenovellas -- which blow. And so we were watching films at Jon Wong's place all in Korean, and I realized that S.Korea's got a BOOMiNG film industry to rival U.S. (or not... ya... but it's really booming). So if I've gotta learn a foreign language, it should be Korean, cuz then I can watch all these Korean dramas and movies and Good Bad Weirds. And then when I'm 30 I can go be a missionary in N.Korea or something and martyr and it'll all be good. After I've been on Broadway. Ya, that sounds like a good plan.
Haha.
7.28.2009
"What are you waiting for?"
"I dunno, something amazing, I guess..."
"Me too, kid."
I'm still waiting for a miracle.
It used to be I thought everything was a miracle. Just look around you, the blue sky, the fact that we can still it after how much junk we've grown up to believe we're dumping in the air. The air that we can breathe, that with lack of we'd die. The people that actually care about us and have been sent from Him to speak for Him.
But I guess like the Jews got bored of miracle of raining bread, I guess I'm looking for my flock of dead crows to drop down for me too.
I couldn't find any verses on friendship but I guess I wasn't looking hard enough.
"I dunno, something amazing, I guess..."
"Me too, kid."
I'm still waiting for a miracle.
It used to be I thought everything was a miracle. Just look around you, the blue sky, the fact that we can still it after how much junk we've grown up to believe we're dumping in the air. The air that we can breathe, that with lack of we'd die. The people that actually care about us and have been sent from Him to speak for Him.
But I guess like the Jews got bored of miracle of raining bread, I guess I'm looking for my flock of dead crows to drop down for me too.
I couldn't find any verses on friendship but I guess I wasn't looking hard enough.
7.23.2009
So today, TK got me invited to Sean's 19th formal coming-out social birthday party or whatever, which I'm not really interested in going to -- cuz Sean and I aren't really buds.
Haha, I'll be honest, I'm not really sure why Sean doesn't like me, but I'm thinking it goes somewhere along the lines of he thinks I keep stealing his girlfriends. TK thinks it's cuz we think differently and interact with our friends differently -- like Sean likes to have a plan, and me? I just like to wing it -- but I don't think something like that would make Sean start talking smack behind my back. To be honest, I think Sean likes to have a plan cuz it makes him feel like he's in charge or that he means something to the group, so that he can have his niche as "leader" or "planner" or whatever makes him fulfilled.
Sean keeps dating girls that are close to me, like Melody, who I've known since 3rd grade, and Sami, who kinda was in the same boat with me romantically Junior year with the whole Diana and Bryant thing going on...
I think he's threatened or something by me at a caveman level, as if I'm gonna attack his manhood and steal his girl and hut and berries.
It's ok, Sean's really nothing to me now, kinda like how Diana kinda hurt me before but now she's nothing to me now either -- haha except a rad salsa partner and we were a riot at Mateo Motion VI. I think TK wants us to get along cuz we're both in Vongola -- our breakdance crew nd hangout team -- but I dunno, cuz apparently Justin and Sean hate me and honestly I don't know why but I've gotten over it and I'm honestly not looking for their approval or affirmation. We used to be all cool but times are changed.
Next: BENMELLI I FINISHED YOUR BOOK NOW WHAT? LET'S TALK
Haha, I'll be honest, I'm not really sure why Sean doesn't like me, but I'm thinking it goes somewhere along the lines of he thinks I keep stealing his girlfriends. TK thinks it's cuz we think differently and interact with our friends differently -- like Sean likes to have a plan, and me? I just like to wing it -- but I don't think something like that would make Sean start talking smack behind my back. To be honest, I think Sean likes to have a plan cuz it makes him feel like he's in charge or that he means something to the group, so that he can have his niche as "leader" or "planner" or whatever makes him fulfilled.
Sean keeps dating girls that are close to me, like Melody, who I've known since 3rd grade, and Sami, who kinda was in the same boat with me romantically Junior year with the whole Diana and Bryant thing going on...
I think he's threatened or something by me at a caveman level, as if I'm gonna attack his manhood and steal his girl and hut and berries.
It's ok, Sean's really nothing to me now, kinda like how Diana kinda hurt me before but now she's nothing to me now either -- haha except a rad salsa partner and we were a riot at Mateo Motion VI. I think TK wants us to get along cuz we're both in Vongola -- our breakdance crew nd hangout team -- but I dunno, cuz apparently Justin and Sean hate me and honestly I don't know why but I've gotten over it and I'm honestly not looking for their approval or affirmation. We used to be all cool but times are changed.
Next: BENMELLI I FINISHED YOUR BOOK NOW WHAT? LET'S TALK
7.20.2009
Una Palabra - Carlos Varela
Una palabra no dice nada y al mismo tiempo lo esconde todo.
Esta noche miré a la película de Denzel Washington que se llama Man on Fire y recordí de mi tiempo en México y también de Casey Schade cuando me dijo de los miedos que sus padres tienen cerca del viaje con la iglesia. Pero fuimos a la puebla más segura en la país -- Porvenir, México. Esta película es vieja, tiene cerca de seis años... y miré cuando estaba nueva. Pero la segunda vez de mirando, lo tiene más poder porque de mis experiencias en las países que se hablan español.
Y a veces, cuando estoy pensando si Dios tiene esquema para mi vida, pienso del regalo de lenguas que me dio -- el aprecio y entendimiento que tengo para culturas diferentes y entiendo que a veces el dicción me falta.
En el libro que estoy leyendo, hay una idea que el autor David Miller le llama Barco de Salvar. Con Cristo, nunca necesitabamos tener miedo que tenemos menos valor que otra persona. No necesitaba comparar quién yo soy a quién él or ella es -- con Cristo, hay amor incondicional. Y entonces, nunca necesitaba comparar que valor que pienso que tengo al valor que pienso que otros tienen... ¿sí?
[Un video en YouTube pregunta este: ¿Eres la persona favorita de alguien? Esta me lastima...
Conozco que Cristo me ama, me ama a mí, pero conozco también que Pedro por ejemplo va a sentarse al derecho de Cristo, ¿no? Y yo? Voy a ser uno de un mil de gente.
Al final de la película, Dakota Fanning conoce que Denzel Washington le ama y conoce que ella es la persona favorita de él.]
Y escuché sí que nadie va a sentir sentimientos malos en Cielo pero cuando pienso de esto aquí en Tierra -- se chulpa.<-- Tatan va a decirme que no se dijo como eso.
Luego: Searching for God Knows What....!
Esta noche miré a la película de Denzel Washington que se llama Man on Fire y recordí de mi tiempo en México y también de Casey Schade cuando me dijo de los miedos que sus padres tienen cerca del viaje con la iglesia. Pero fuimos a la puebla más segura en la país -- Porvenir, México. Esta película es vieja, tiene cerca de seis años... y miré cuando estaba nueva. Pero la segunda vez de mirando, lo tiene más poder porque de mis experiencias en las países que se hablan español.
Y a veces, cuando estoy pensando si Dios tiene esquema para mi vida, pienso del regalo de lenguas que me dio -- el aprecio y entendimiento que tengo para culturas diferentes y entiendo que a veces el dicción me falta.
En el libro que estoy leyendo, hay una idea que el autor David Miller le llama Barco de Salvar. Con Cristo, nunca necesitabamos tener miedo que tenemos menos valor que otra persona. No necesitaba comparar quién yo soy a quién él or ella es -- con Cristo, hay amor incondicional. Y entonces, nunca necesitaba comparar que valor que pienso que tengo al valor que pienso que otros tienen... ¿sí?
[Un video en YouTube pregunta este: ¿Eres la persona favorita de alguien? Esta me lastima...
Conozco que Cristo me ama, me ama a mí, pero conozco también que Pedro por ejemplo va a sentarse al derecho de Cristo, ¿no? Y yo? Voy a ser uno de un mil de gente.
Al final de la película, Dakota Fanning conoce que Denzel Washington le ama y conoce que ella es la persona favorita de él.]
Y escuché sí que nadie va a sentir sentimientos malos en Cielo pero cuando pienso de esto aquí en Tierra -- se chulpa.<-- Tatan va a decirme que no se dijo como eso.
Luego: Searching for God Knows What....!
7.16.2009
A Boy Like That - Anita from West Side Story
So we're just sittin' around in a circle listening to this speaker at college group one night, when she's like hey ok we're gonna do an activity now, and I'm like cool -- so everyone gets a cup with 5 different colored beans and 3 of each color. And the beans represent the different things we want in life like Success, Fame, Knowledge, Love, and Money. So we start trading, but the very first beans I lose are the pink ones... the ones that stand for LOVE.
unrequitted LOVE is stupid.
And sometimes it makes me wonder, why isn't God's love enough?
Edmond Rostand's Cyrano de Bergerac is about an ugly musketeer who you think is in love -- unrequitted -- with Roxanne, but as soon as he wins her heart, you realize that this musketeer is only in love -- with being in love.
But maybe the musketeer has fallen in love with "love" because he doesn't know what the real confirmation of true returned affection is.
I'm reading this book -- Searching for God Knows What by Donald Miller. And he's got this idea, that human emotions are inexplainable and untouchable save through art -- through human expression that cannot be recreated through any modern day science.
He's got this idea that most of the Old Testament [and its ideas] is written in poetic verse because poetry invokes emotion and --
"...that the ideas could not be presented accurately outside the emotions within which the truths were embedded."
-Donald Miller
In Berstein and Sondheim's musical West Side Story, Anita sings and shouts, "A Boy Like That," a desperate solo conveying all her pain and desperation and conflicting feelings about Maria's relationship with Bernardo's killer. And there I think there's just something about that number, something that stirs audiences that just wouldn't work the same way outside of music -- it wouldn't be the same as if Anita just told Maria how she felt, wouldn't be as potent -- there just something about poetry and music that conveys in whole the emotional pain and internal struggle for Anita to keep it together.
Fig 2. Jonny Stein jumping on top of me cuz we're fighting. Who jumps on top of someone like that during a fight?
Next: Still Searching for God Knows What.
unrequitted LOVE is stupid.
And sometimes it makes me wonder, why isn't God's love enough?
Edmond Rostand's Cyrano de Bergerac is about an ugly musketeer who you think is in love -- unrequitted -- with Roxanne, but as soon as he wins her heart, you realize that this musketeer is only in love -- with being in love.
But maybe the musketeer has fallen in love with "love" because he doesn't know what the real confirmation of true returned affection is.
I'm reading this book -- Searching for God Knows What by Donald Miller. And he's got this idea, that human emotions are inexplainable and untouchable save through art -- through human expression that cannot be recreated through any modern day science.
He's got this idea that most of the Old Testament [and its ideas] is written in poetic verse because poetry invokes emotion and --
"...that the ideas could not be presented accurately outside the emotions within which the truths were embedded."
-Donald Miller
In Berstein and Sondheim's musical West Side Story, Anita sings and shouts, "A Boy Like That," a desperate solo conveying all her pain and desperation and conflicting feelings about Maria's relationship with Bernardo's killer. And there I think there's just something about that number, something that stirs audiences that just wouldn't work the same way outside of music -- it wouldn't be the same as if Anita just told Maria how she felt, wouldn't be as potent -- there just something about poetry and music that conveys in whole the emotional pain and internal struggle for Anita to keep it together.
Fig 2. Jonny Stein jumping on top of me cuz we're fighting. Who jumps on top of someone like that during a fight?
Next: Still Searching for God Knows What.
7.14.2009
Dear Benjamin Melli,
Remember that guy I told you about? I don't know if I be around him alone anymore and I've never felt so far away from God as when I'm with him. I feel like all that's negative around him comes out when I'm with him -- because everything he says about all the pain and hurt and evil he's feeling is what I feel too -- all the rejection from friends, or abandonment -- or all the friends I've lost -- or all the hopelessness of being here -- all the loss I've felt I've never felt as strong as when I'm with him. He's like the only piece of the past I've shed that's still lasted. And I would ditch him now if I didn't think he needs a friend. But now I'm scared that if he's left alone again he'll kill himself.
Remember that guy I told you about? I don't know if I be around him alone anymore and I've never felt so far away from God as when I'm with him. I feel like all that's negative around him comes out when I'm with him -- because everything he says about all the pain and hurt and evil he's feeling is what I feel too -- all the rejection from friends, or abandonment -- or all the friends I've lost -- or all the hopelessness of being here -- all the loss I've felt I've never felt as strong as when I'm with him. He's like the only piece of the past I've shed that's still lasted. And I would ditch him now if I didn't think he needs a friend. But now I'm scared that if he's left alone again he'll kill himself.
7.12.2009
Check Yes Juliet - We The Kings
Run Baby Run!
I started running in the mornings. Pretty hot today so I sweated some.
Gonna take a camera around with me wherever I go, take photos of summer.
Next: swimming? beach!
I started running in the mornings. Pretty hot today so I sweated some.
Gonna take a camera around with me wherever I go, take photos of summer.
Next: swimming? beach!
7.08.2009
Part of the List - NeYo
The stories you tell as we stay in bed, all afternoon.
Ya, I don't have someone special to wake up to every morning, but I do love staying in bed all afternoon -- till 12:53pm when I feel the need to wake up and write a blog post.
So it's 07/08/09 today. That means, we're officially in JULY and I better get started on those summer projects unless it's only to STAY IN BED for the whole summer which I guess is cool cuz I hardly slept this whole school year.
But I think so far, the biggest theme of my summer so far is just LIVE LIFE -- it doesn't hafta be special or amazing like going away far and doing humanitarian work or starting an thriving business -- but sometimes it just camera taking amateur videos of the small moments. :[ Haha. Ok that's the sappiest I'm ever gonna get.
I'm planning to cover my four walls and ceiling with photos before I leave for college, so if anyone's ever curious about me -- they can just peek in and see everything that I'm made up of (cuz a person's just the sum of their experiences) and see who my friends are and when we've laughed or cried or really just LIVED LIFE.
I like American Eagle -- LIVE YOUR LIFE.
Fig 1. Kevin Sandwich - Laughing and Crying at the Same Time
Next: Bucket List?
Ya, I don't have someone special to wake up to every morning, but I do love staying in bed all afternoon -- till 12:53pm when I feel the need to wake up and write a blog post.
So it's 07/08/09 today. That means, we're officially in JULY and I better get started on those summer projects unless it's only to STAY IN BED for the whole summer which I guess is cool cuz I hardly slept this whole school year.
But I think so far, the biggest theme of my summer so far is just LIVE LIFE -- it doesn't hafta be special or amazing like going away far and doing humanitarian work or starting an thriving business -- but sometimes it just camera taking amateur videos of the small moments. :[ Haha. Ok that's the sappiest I'm ever gonna get.
I'm planning to cover my four walls and ceiling with photos before I leave for college, so if anyone's ever curious about me -- they can just peek in and see everything that I'm made up of (cuz a person's just the sum of their experiences) and see who my friends are and when we've laughed or cried or really just LIVED LIFE.
I like American Eagle -- LIVE YOUR LIFE.
Fig 1. Kevin Sandwich - Laughing and Crying at the Same Time
Next: Bucket List?
7.06.2009
Damaged - Danity Kane
I really wanna be your lady.
There was this one time I was in the car with my ex-girlfriend -- it was San Mateo's prom night and she was my date, and I took her after the dance to the Golden Gate Bridge, the most romantic spot in the city of love.
And we talked about just life, and we got around to the subject of what college I'd choose to go to next year (cuz then I was deciding between NYU and UCDavis), and I said how much I LOVE this city. And comparing NY to San Francisco was hard, and I thought about how it'd be pretty cool to go to school in and live in the city and that I love San Francisco because my friends are here, my life is here, and I'm pretty sure my future would end up here --
But I'm pretty sure she wished I had said I LOVE you -- and she said softly, "I'm here!"
And I kinda just looked at her, like, we've just started dating and you already want me to consider my college plans based on the fact that a girl I'm not dating now (like today, July 6th, 2009) -- a mere 2 months later -- are you for serious?
Next: Unrequitted Love
There was this one time I was in the car with my ex-girlfriend -- it was San Mateo's prom night and she was my date, and I took her after the dance to the Golden Gate Bridge, the most romantic spot in the city of love.
And we talked about just life, and we got around to the subject of what college I'd choose to go to next year (cuz then I was deciding between NYU and UCDavis), and I said how much I LOVE this city. And comparing NY to San Francisco was hard, and I thought about how it'd be pretty cool to go to school in and live in the city and that I love San Francisco because my friends are here, my life is here, and I'm pretty sure my future would end up here --
But I'm pretty sure she wished I had said I LOVE you -- and she said softly, "I'm here!"
And I kinda just looked at her, like, we've just started dating and you already want me to consider my college plans based on the fact that a girl I'm not dating now (like today, July 6th, 2009) -- a mere 2 months later -- are you for serious?
Next: Unrequitted Love
7.04.2009
Makes Me Wonder - Maroon 5
Give me somethin' to believe in.
Fourth of July -- a wreck of patriotism and flagwaving. Nothing wrong with that, but it makes me wonder, that everyone wants something to believe in, and in something bigger than themselves: honor, duty, their country -- and for some of us -- God.
Fourth of July -- a wreck of patriotism and flagwaving. Nothing wrong with that, but it makes me wonder, that everyone wants something to believe in, and in something bigger than themselves: honor, duty, their country -- and for some of us -- God.
7.01.2009
Do You Remember? - The Summer Obsession
Do you remember?
The summer before my Junior Year, I got really close to this girl. She's nothing to me now, but that summer, we did so much together. Sophmore year had been really dramatic, and we were both a part of all that drama. But we were ready for a fresh start.
Sophmore year at San Mateo: we both lost relationships that we really valued, or that once used to mean something to us, and we saw our friends cry and our friends hate. And you'd think it's just teen angst, but we had psychological problems with our friends -- maniac depression and mild schizophrenia.
So that summer we went to summer school at Capuchino. And everything was new: the high school experience, the friendships, the type of people we connected with. And me and her, we were really feelin' good that summer.
That summer, her parents split -- not a divorce, but her dad just left and her mom disappeared a lot because she worked in the airline industry and flew around a lot. And I knew she wanted out. Me too -- I wanted out too.
So I told her, let's just leave our school and what "friends" we have left and let's go live north and change schools and nicknames and just be new people. And she said ya let's do it!
But our time at Capuchino ended, and August rolled around and class scheduling and the first day of school rolled around and we still hadn't applied for a transfer. And then our first summer homework assignments were due and our textbooks were checked out and eventually the first school dance rolled around -- it was in the quad, DJ dance under the stars -- and I made tight with new friends and I was feelin' good where I was.
But she wasn't. And she really withdrew from the world and got scared to talk to me or even my cousin who she was best friends with. And eventually -- she was just gone.
She came back for the beginning of senior year, and I thought Hey where have you been all this time? but then a few weeks later, she disappeared again.
I found out she transfered schools to Wisconsin -- and started gettin' into drugs and smoking and alcohol. But from hearsay, she was feelin' good there.
"Feelin' Good"
I wonder what it would have been like if we both really did transfer schools together and went north, and did what at the time she had been to scared to do alone.
Next: Nothing but Your T-Shirt On
The summer before my Junior Year, I got really close to this girl. She's nothing to me now, but that summer, we did so much together. Sophmore year had been really dramatic, and we were both a part of all that drama. But we were ready for a fresh start.
Sophmore year at San Mateo: we both lost relationships that we really valued, or that once used to mean something to us, and we saw our friends cry and our friends hate. And you'd think it's just teen angst, but we had psychological problems with our friends -- maniac depression and mild schizophrenia.
So that summer we went to summer school at Capuchino. And everything was new: the high school experience, the friendships, the type of people we connected with. And me and her, we were really feelin' good that summer.
That summer, her parents split -- not a divorce, but her dad just left and her mom disappeared a lot because she worked in the airline industry and flew around a lot. And I knew she wanted out. Me too -- I wanted out too.
So I told her, let's just leave our school and what "friends" we have left and let's go live north and change schools and nicknames and just be new people. And she said ya let's do it!
But our time at Capuchino ended, and August rolled around and class scheduling and the first day of school rolled around and we still hadn't applied for a transfer. And then our first summer homework assignments were due and our textbooks were checked out and eventually the first school dance rolled around -- it was in the quad, DJ dance under the stars -- and I made tight with new friends and I was feelin' good where I was.
But she wasn't. And she really withdrew from the world and got scared to talk to me or even my cousin who she was best friends with. And eventually -- she was just gone.
She came back for the beginning of senior year, and I thought Hey where have you been all this time? but then a few weeks later, she disappeared again.
I found out she transfered schools to Wisconsin -- and started gettin' into drugs and smoking and alcohol. But from hearsay, she was feelin' good there.
"Feelin' Good"
I wonder what it would have been like if we both really did transfer schools together and went north, and did what at the time she had been to scared to do alone.
Do you remember? We said we'd run.
Away together, holding on to one another.
Next: Nothing but Your T-Shirt On
6.30.2009
Who Let the Dogs Out - Baja Men
Who let the dogs out?
So there's this dog, brown and wet nosed, and really friendly -- so I've heard. But when I met it, I barked at it and it got really scared or something and started barking like there's was no tomorrow. I was wearing pink that day, so I guess, every time I see 'im, and I'm wearing pink, he knows it's me. And I saw it today, and it barked.
David Misson was there, he can vouch for me.
But I swear, it's really threatened by me, but yo, I'm no threat I just wanna be its buddy. But I guess dogs think differently than dudes. Cuz if there's a dude that can bark louder than me I'd be like YO let's have a barking contest, but I guess that dog dint wanna compete.
Next: Why do chinchillas bathe in dust?
So there's this dog, brown and wet nosed, and really friendly -- so I've heard. But when I met it, I barked at it and it got really scared or something and started barking like there's was no tomorrow. I was wearing pink that day, so I guess, every time I see 'im, and I'm wearing pink, he knows it's me. And I saw it today, and it barked.
David Misson was there, he can vouch for me.
But I swear, it's really threatened by me, but yo, I'm no threat I just wanna be its buddy. But I guess dogs think differently than dudes. Cuz if there's a dude that can bark louder than me I'd be like YO let's have a barking contest, but I guess that dog dint wanna compete.
Next: Why do chinchillas bathe in dust?
6.29.2009
On Top of the World - Boys Like Girls
There's just something about night swimming.
You float around aimlessly without being able to see, but no one outside the pool can see you either. Maybe it's because the feeling of floating is what it feels like when your brain is swimming around in your unconscious mind.
I've been goin' night swimming a lot lately with Casey Schmal.
next: Mud MOVIE?
You float around aimlessly without being able to see, but no one outside the pool can see you either. Maybe it's because the feeling of floating is what it feels like when your brain is swimming around in your unconscious mind.
I've been goin' night swimming a lot lately with Casey Schmal.
next: Mud MOVIE?
6.28.2009
It's Foolishness I Know - Delirious
Hip Hop is Physical Slang.
There were these black kids hanging out on the street everyday outside the G.O. compound in the Dominican Republic. And they'd just mill around like there's nothing to do, Ariel and his friends drinkin' tequila, Luis David showing off on his lil moped of a bike, Pedro and his buddies playing Betilla (Vitilla) with bottlecaps, and some of the smaller kids just milling around. You could tell some of them were gonna grow up to be Ariel or Luis David, but some of the kids were also pretty innocent. During la siesta Kerri and I and sometimes Emily or Emma would pop out of our American sanctuary onto these foreign streets just to hang and mill around with the Dominicans.
There was this amazing day that I woke up and just knew the sun was gonna be shining for the entire day, cuz the sky was clear and the heat was killer. Then we came back to the G.O. compound for lunch and it started pissing rain. It started raining as hard as it does in the Bay Area, and then got WORSE. Like, I thought tubs were being poured on me.
Anyway, this americano que no vive aquí told me to get out of the rain, and that I could get tetnus from the concrete and polution being smeltered all over me cuz of the water. So I went back into the shelter of the G.O. compound, where all the "white people" were watching. And these Dominicans, they start rapping in SPANISH. Which is awesome, so I take NikiVel's sandals and get back out there, trying to figure out what's goin' on, what they're sayin'.
And they're beatboxing, and laying more and more beats onto the beat someone started, and as the layers build, someone starts rapping on top of it in Spanish. And I'm just like yo, this is so freakin' sick I wish I rapped more. AND THEN:
The Dominican twin starts SIX STEPPING, and I was like YO, I KNOW HOW TO DO THAT. YA, I KNOW SOME BREAKDANCING SOME. And someone tries a Nike, and I'm like YO, I'MA PIKE -- that's a type of freeze. And that's just how the story goes.
As Teresa likes to put it, she knew I wasn't stupid enough to try a backflip on the concrete and especially in the rain. I wasn't that stupid nope, nope, he's not that ... oh yes he is that stupid.
I tried it -- and just BARELY survived. Haha.
After that, I went back to the Guy's Dorm and these two kids, maybe 9 or 10, followed me in the rain. And they were coming in but I felt real bad cuz the dorms weren't ours so I told 'em esta casa es de G.O. ministries no es nuestra casa. And they asked me if I was gonna be around. And I told 'em voy a ir a la iglesia de Medina el domingo and told 'em about el béisbol after morning at church. Then they left.
And as it kept on pouring tubs outside and I took my first hot shower that week -- and I thought about that one song:
Every siesta after that, kids off the street would call out to me, even kids I dint really know in person. And they'd call out Jackie!
Or Chino. Dean the Chino.
next: Sixer's Jersey, HMB in a Convertible, Movie Scripts and Blogging
There were these black kids hanging out on the street everyday outside the G.O. compound in the Dominican Republic. And they'd just mill around like there's nothing to do, Ariel and his friends drinkin' tequila, Luis David showing off on his lil moped of a bike, Pedro and his buddies playing Betilla (Vitilla) with bottlecaps, and some of the smaller kids just milling around. You could tell some of them were gonna grow up to be Ariel or Luis David, but some of the kids were also pretty innocent. During la siesta Kerri and I and sometimes Emily or Emma would pop out of our American sanctuary onto these foreign streets just to hang and mill around with the Dominicans.
There was this amazing day that I woke up and just knew the sun was gonna be shining for the entire day, cuz the sky was clear and the heat was killer. Then we came back to the G.O. compound for lunch and it started pissing rain. It started raining as hard as it does in the Bay Area, and then got WORSE. Like, I thought tubs were being poured on me.
Anyway, this americano que no vive aquí told me to get out of the rain, and that I could get tetnus from the concrete and polution being smeltered all over me cuz of the water. So I went back into the shelter of the G.O. compound, where all the "white people" were watching. And these Dominicans, they start rapping in SPANISH. Which is awesome, so I take NikiVel's sandals and get back out there, trying to figure out what's goin' on, what they're sayin'.
And they're beatboxing, and laying more and more beats onto the beat someone started, and as the layers build, someone starts rapping on top of it in Spanish. And I'm just like yo, this is so freakin' sick I wish I rapped more. AND THEN:
The Dominican twin starts SIX STEPPING, and I was like YO, I KNOW HOW TO DO THAT. YA, I KNOW SOME BREAKDANCING SOME. And someone tries a Nike, and I'm like YO, I'MA PIKE -- that's a type of freeze. And that's just how the story goes.
As Teresa likes to put it, she knew I wasn't stupid enough to try a backflip on the concrete and especially in the rain. I wasn't that stupid nope, nope, he's not that ... oh yes he is that stupid.
I tried it -- and just BARELY survived. Haha.
After that, I went back to the Guy's Dorm and these two kids, maybe 9 or 10, followed me in the rain. And they were coming in but I felt real bad cuz the dorms weren't ours so I told 'em esta casa es de G.O. ministries no es nuestra casa. And they asked me if I was gonna be around. And I told 'em voy a ir a la iglesia de Medina el domingo and told 'em about el béisbol after morning at church. Then they left.
And as it kept on pouring tubs outside and I took my first hot shower that week -- and I thought about that one song:
Oh I feel like dancing, it's foolishness I know
But when the world has seen the light
They will dance for joy like we're dancing now.
Every siesta after that, kids off the street would call out to me, even kids I dint really know in person. And they'd call out Jackie!
Or Chino. Dean the Chino.
next: Sixer's Jersey, HMB in a Convertible, Movie Scripts and Blogging
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