DEAN the CHINO

Dear Benjamin Melli,

Remember that guy I told you about? I don't know if I be around him alone anymore and I've never felt so far away from God as when I'm with him. I feel like all that's negative around him comes out when I'm with him -- because everything he says about all the pain and hurt and evil he's feeling is what I feel too -- all the rejection from friends, or abandonment -- or all the friends I've lost -- or all the hopelessness of being here -- all the loss I've felt I've never felt as strong as when I'm with him. He's like the only piece of the past I've shed that's still lasted. And I would ditch him now if I didn't think he needs a friend. But now I'm scared that if he's left alone again he'll kill himself.